Am i insane somehow

 Yes Its true i have had Many times psychosis so i know a lot about it. I have been in psychiatric hospital Many times as younger . I was 25 when i first got some insanity i was then student in school. I stopped the school and moved out of mold house. Yes i was that stupid i can handle mold house in the city center to live in center. I got ofcourse unwell. Dont recommend. I run into trouble in life and was quite insane inside cause i was on my own in life. I had emotionally had well being quite self clearly before even some unwell before also emotionally which is normal in life. But from some insanity my emotions turned quite cold from lonely heart that nobody then talked so much to me. I was in therapy before i went insane but then there was no more therapists posibility. From things in my experience then in a little outside home well being and from things in the society how psychiatry is handling psychosis yes i was from it also from difficult things insane in a way inside without so much emotional heart felt comfort from anybody. I did yoga and healing a lot and had maybe shared reality with green ideology people and green life style without losing actually ever totally Connection to real. Even in psychosis one lose reality in a way no i didnt totally lost it sure i things  understood. I was how ever Many times inside insane in psychosis. But recovered into something real. Things then happen in rather bad mental well being and once i took in accident homeopathic cyanide too much and went insane and tryed to kill myself without interest actually to die in illogical mind. I have been a lot medicated and from such insult to female line anybody like me anybody would think i am seriously  insane. I dont accept my medication and am not for it. My inner life am i insane is to me private issue , i can at least this way analyse things such means i have something sane. I am not physically Healthy from medications and quite unwell and against this kind of treatment of females as insane. I have not been in psychosis for a long time i dont even remember when i last was Its Many years ago. My psychosis disorder is soluted by self study so no i should not anymore be cabable even into psychosis from lack of such psychology that gets psychosis. If a Person has inside insanity Its private and no i dont do insanity to others and yes i am in trouble still today with people around me in my pathetic little life. I am not anymore insane and Thats ofcoyrse too bad such powers as insanity should not faid away. Yes i became in youth a strong female who can take anything in life without going insane in youth but OH that mold and all suprised me. I can TaKe difficulties in life in a way mentally without being insane illogical female gone insane. But all Enjoy that i am somehow the insane for them from the  reasons in my Past what happened in my life. I think they are just funny and ok people . I was for spiritual healing and wish anybody was for such things  in life for better powers and better feelings.    Yes the medications cause it that the been psychosis ill are rather  sane. Our insanity from things in life is medicated away. The medications should be used only during psychosis not to prevent psychosis or we are too sane. Life should make us also a little insane and we should  do healing and help esch other.